Day of atonement. I realize that today is not, in fact, Yom Kippur. I am not trying to offend my Jewish reader base. Well, my reader base period. Do I even have a reader base??
Anyway, this is my day of atonement. Remember the hiatus I talked about? Well, when I took said hiatus, I fucked up a lot of things. Not intentionally, mind you, but yet, I still fucked them up. So now, I am stoning for my sins, so to speak, and hoping for forgiveness.
Jon Stewart talked about it once. “Yom Kippur. The Jewish day of atonement. You don’t eat for one day, and all your sins for an entire year are wiped clean. Beat that with your silly little Lent. Even in sin you’re paying retail. Bargain with the man!”
Which as of yesterday, it is Lent. It probably would have made more sense for me to have titled the post that way…being raised Catholic and all. Then again, I am not practicing anything at the moment…just trying to find my path. So, ultimately, the title and the timing aren’t what is important. I’m really just trying to focus on fixing my fuck-ups, er, uh, sins. Slowly mending the fences as it were. Or tearing them down. Yeah, that makes more sense. See, I went on hiatus rather unexpectedly, hence the fucking up. Then I was too ashamed to face my failures, and became a virtual hermit. The actor in me made every appearance of being a normal functioning member of society. The reality was that I was holed up in a cabin in the woods
So here I am, atoning. If you are reading this, and I have somehow wronged you, I am sorry. I will right it. For you see, I have discovered it is too hard to care about others, when you are too busy not caring about yourself.
Beat that with your silly little Lent. My therapist would be so proud.